almost there

PHEW!!! !take it a sign of relief...for what u might be thinking.well im finaly in my last year of tertiary, after a looooooooooooooong and believe me very long time.
ive lost count of how many times iv seen the words FAIL on my academic records,more fails than passes.and only up until i realised that my younger sister who trails behind me by two years was now at the same level as me.not just that i found myself in a relationship that i wanted to invest more of my feelings in...and i cant be a failure in someone elses eyes now(i dont care if in ur thoughts ur thinking hawu...ngomfana nje{i guess theyr good for something})another oh so frightening revelation was that i thought of the money id now flushed down the drain...my mom and dad are are in there 50's now,how dare i take for granted that priviledge of not needing financial aid,these elderly people wake up not because they want o but because they have chosent to give me what they never had,A BETTER CHANCE AT LIFE.now that was a wake up call.a tad bit late but you know...better late than never.so here i am after my wake up calls and a few more fails....at a point in my life where im happy with my self.where i know that i messed up,but everything happens for a reason,i retarded my own pace but i cant imagen my life had i done things differently.im afraid of what next year holds,but excited at the opportunities that will be presented to me.i have all the support in the worl right now...those same loving parents who still remind me how i gave them fake results,the same relationship that makes me want to strive for a better future,the same friends that wiped my tears when i failed and studied with me in a lounge without furniture(i chose to create furniture with crates...but the girls disagreed that it qualified as such),but the only thing thats changed is that all the above people are so much prettier,smarter and loving